On the Second Day of Christmas....

Fill in the blank: 

On the second day of Christmas my Mistress gave to me:

Two ____________

and a Paddle in a pear tree 

(I will choose a response to carry forward to the next day of Christmas)

On The First Day of Christmas....

 Fill in the blank:

On the first day of Christmas my Mistress gave to me a __________ in a pear tree.

(In a few days I will choose a response to carry forward to the next day of Christmas)

WLM in Good Times and Bad Times

Author Note: I wrote this post several months ago so the timing is off. I am happy to say that most of the challenges we were dealing with then, have been handled and we are emerging out of the stress and getting back to normalcy. I hope this post brings light to the realness of FLRs - that it is not all about sex and control. For those dealing with life challenges, I hope this post provides encouragement to work through those challenges and keep your eyes focused on the light at the end of the tunnel. I am writing this note now because together, my husband and I overcame the obstacles we experienced, and are getting back to a wonderful place. Keeping moving forward and stay positive!  -Mz Kaylee

Blogs, forums, and articles about WLM/FLR tend to focus only on the domination and sexual aspects of the relationship. This makes sense because that's what people want to read about and learn about. The downside to this narrow focus is that it can create a false picture of what a real WLM/FLR is like. A person could easily begin to think that a FLR leads to 24/7 and 365 days a year of intense domination and non-stop sexual fun. My current situation is a stark reminder that a FLR/WLM is not impervious to same external pressures that any other relationship deals with.

If it seems that I have not been very engaged in my blog lately, it's because I have a lot going on in my life now. The kids are home from college, which I am thrilled about, but it has disrupted many of the  fun, new routines that I have put in place for my husband. Not to mention, that having them home adds a new level of hecticness and craziness to the house! Then there is our parents. Both of our parents are at the age where they are needy and require more support. My husband's parents are the neediest, requiring extra care.  If you've had to care for an elder parent before, you know that not only does it consume more of your time, but it also creates added stress.

It really sucks when you've gotten into a good routine and things are humming along really good, and then something disrupts everything. It's been several weeks since my husband and I have had intimate time together so that means no orgasm for me. He's used to being denied orgasm, but there is a big difference between planned orgasm denial vs. no orgasm because you are too busy or stressed. It's certainly not enjoyable for him. So much of our routines have been put on hold. No weekly review sessions, no corner time, and no massages for me. It has all been necessary due to our current situation, which we have little control over.

This does not mean our WLM is not intact or is falling apart. It certainly is being tested, just like any relationship would be. However, he is still submissive to me and yields to my authority. He still wears pantie every day. Of course, that is the only underwear he owns now, so I guess he has no choice :).  He still has chores to do, but I have relaxed my expectations a bit and I have helped with some on days when I know he's stressed or consumed with activities related to his parents care. It's times like these when I have extra appreciation and respect for all the work that he does for me. It is a reminder to me of how lucky I am to have a submissive husband who is devoted to serving me and making me happy. I've been spoiled by having such an obedient husband and I've come to enjoy being pampered and pleasured whenever and however I want. It is a superior lifestyle!

The bottom line, is our relationship and love for each other rises above it all. I don't want him to be stressed. I want him to be happy. To help him get through this hard time, I have no issue taking back some of the work I imposed on him as part of his submissive duties. The crazy thing is that he would prefer things to be back to where they were a few months ago, when he was working hard for me and I was being strict with him and holding him to high standards. It's just not a realistic scenario right now.  I can tell that he is disappointed when I do things that are his duties. He will apologize to me when tasks are not done timely. During the day he will often come up to me and hug me and tell me he loves me and misses my body. Likewise, I will do the same to him and let him know that I will help him anyway I can. It may seem strange, but my control and strictness is a stress reliever for him and brings a sense of normalcy to his day. This is why I still expect him to do chores, make my coffees, and order him to refill my water when I am sitting watching TV. I have just relaxed my standards a bit and am helping as needed.

Our FLR dynamic is a natural part of our life now, so even with all the barriers and challenges we are facing, our FLR dynamic remains intact. It's just that many of the activities that enhance the experience and make it fun and exciting, are put on hold. We have our eyes set on the future, knowing that this is a temporary situation and we are taking steps to address the issues we are facing, with the goal of getting back to our normal routines. This is just a blip on roadmap of life. 

I share this post to let others know that even a mature FLR is not all fun and games and has it's challenges. It's important to be flexible with your arrangement and adjust rules, activities, and expectations as life throws your curve balls.  It is also important to work together to overcome those curve balls and stay focused on bringing things back to your ideal state.

-Mz Kaylee

 

Shaping My Husband

The ability to shape your husband into your perfect submissive is an exciting element of WLM. It is a powerful feeling when I realize he has been molded by me. It’s also fantastic because it means he has changed his behavior to something I desire and something that benefits me. Shaping does not happen overnight. It takes time, training, and conditioning. When you are shaping your husband, it is like breaking his habits and training him with new habits. Various research indicates it takes 18 to 254 days to break a habit. Shaping in a WLM is about changing lifelong learned behaviors, so my guess is that the timing is more towards the high end of the range (254 days). Some things require time and experience to get him to a mindset to want to do the desired behavior and so it may take years before the molding is complete.

What does it mean to be shaped? It is not just training him to do something. It is about creating a behavior or attitude that is instinctive for him. It is about changing his actual thought process. Let me give a few examples:

Chores: He does chores consistently to my expectations without me having to tell him what to do or when to do it. He gets satisfaction out of doing his chores and it bothers him when they are not done. My husband will often turn down requests to do things with his friends because he knows he needs to get his chores done.

Yielding to me: It is instinctive for him to yield to my decision making and to my desires. Arguing does not occur to him or is a very rare occurrence. When presented with options, it is instinctive for him to defer to me or to choose the option that benefits me rather than him.

Seeking my approval for social activities: He does not make plans without consulting with me. He will defer to me or direct friends to me when scheduling social activities as a couple. It is an automatic reaction to seek my approval versus him having to do it because I require it.

Sex: When he thinks about sex, he is thinking about orally pleasuring me and not PIV sex. He has no expectations for an orgasm or being on top. His pleasure comes from my pleasure, and he desires to be beneath me, pleasuring me.

Notice how in the examples above, the behaviors and things he is doing are instinctive or desired by him. That is when you know he has been shaped. These are all real examples of how my husband has been shaped. Things were not always that way with him. The shaping and conditioning occurred over many years. Some shaping occurred without us even realizing it. In some ways, I was even shaped by the experience, as I learned to be more dominate and controlling. These days I am more intentional about shaping, such as getting him to be more purposeful in his talking. Whether it’s purposeful or unintentional, it is exciting when I reflect on his behavior and thought process today versus years ago and I realize he is a different person because of my influence and control. 

How about for you submissives? Is it exciting to be shaped by your wife or female partner? When your thoughts and actions have been permanently influenced by female power, is that a huge mind fuck for you? How have you been shaped? Do you fantasize about being molded a certain way by your wife or girlfriend?

=Mz Kaylee